Im turning over a new marijuana leaf

I started this year out with a mission.

I decided to turn over a new
marijuana leaf.

My mission and challenge to myself is to change the
mindset.

Let’s face it; I’m not exactly a ray of sunshine.

Christ,
most days I’m the golden stream of urine in the world’s bowl of
cheerios.

Debby Downer ain’t got shit on me.

I’ve pretty much
perfected being a bitch for no reason at all

I feel like I’m
constantly fighting to protect myself

Little tiny fists of fury;
swinging nonstop

Swinging at people I know, people I don’t know,
pretty much the whole world

It’s been seven years since my world came crashing down around me

It’s been nonstop swinging ever since

Turns out, the PIT is a quick learner

She’s developing that little
gray cloud that has been looming over her mother for years

I don’t want my little girl to have a gray cloud

Hell I don’t even want mine!

In order to stop her cloud from forming….I’ve got to blow my own to
smithereens.

I have the ability to do that

I’ve got to Im going to change the
mindset

The world is not out to get me

Certain people may be and for
that I’ll always have my dukes up ready to defend myself

I dont have
to assume that everyone’s an asshole

The assholes will reveal themselves in due time

I’m going to approach each day as it is–a new
day

Let go of the anger & hurt from days past….give everyday a
chance to be a great day.

Teach my daughter to give happy a chance.