Comments on: Sometimes I feel like a different person

By: singlemama_cc

singlemama_cc — Mon, 26 Apr 2010 12:59:28 +0000

You’re not the only crazy one out there…..I’m right there with ya! When did I write this? Ah yes-February (good thing these are dated!) It’s almost May and I’m feeling much better these days…I’ve embraced my crazy. Somedays are always going to blow goats. I’m learning to let those goat blowing days go….they still effect me, they have to otherwise Id be ignoring them & well..Ive already done that and about self destructed. They affect me but dont break me…ya know? I’ve been looking at things as a challenge that I AM able to take….the world isnt shitting on me….God isnt giving me more that I can handle….I’ve just been underestimating myself simply out of fear. Silly me:)
Last week, my cousin & her boyfriend sent me an email…..the bf has been fighting lymphoma for the past 5 months. Friday I got the email that he is offically in REMISSION! In my cousins email she said something that hit me like a train….”People always say that if God brings you to it he will bring you through it. They forgot to mention the part about the friends God has blessed you with to help you through the tough times” That hit me bc OMG I have some really fucking awesome friends and what the fuck am I whining about?! Not having a man? Pissed off bc I thought this time-for sure-he loved me? Pissed off that I was wrong? Who the hell do I think I am lol….I dont control this shit! I control ME. Ive been blessed with a beautiful daughter, friends that love me even when Im not very lovable and ya know what? Someday I’ll find a man, or he’ll find me….that will love me for who I am–one hell of a passionate, fiercely loving and doesnt mind that I say FUCK 150000383494 times a day:)

By: rockstarmomma30

rockstarmomma30 — Mon, 08 Feb 2010 09:54:16 +0000

I am right there with you, girl. Everything you said struck a cord inside me. I feel this way everyday…EVERYDAY. Just when you think you’ve found an ounce of light, something else monkey-slaps you when you’re not even fucking looking. You get too used to feeling shitty, so much so that when a shred of happiness finally finds you, all you can think about is the next nasty fucking thing that’s going to kick your ass. I got you…totally. Sometimes the dread I feel constantly is enough to bury me. I keep digging and digging my way out only to have another shovel of dirt tossed on my head. I thought I was the only one and that I was just fucked up…well I am fucked up…but it’s still nice to know that I’m not the only crazy out there…

By: Danielle

Danielle — Mon, 08 Feb 2010 01:32:35 +0000

Hang in there. You have a lot of good in you and it will conquer.

By: notyouraveragesinglemomma

notyouraveragesinglemomma — Sun, 07 Feb 2010 22:44:16 +0000

It counts for more than I can say~
Thank you Ashlea

By: ashlea

ashlea — Sun, 07 Feb 2010 18:18:31 +0000

EVERY
SINGLE
WORD
is too terribly familiar. I don’t know what to say because clearly if you or I or anyone else knew how, we’d figure out a way to never return to this place. I just want to tell you that aren’t really alone because if you were, then I wouldn’t know exactly what you’re talking about…and I do. Every single word rings true to me in my gut on a feeling level. Someone really heard every word and that counts for something I hope.