Category Archives: Just because Im a mom does NOT mean I wont throat punch you

Back when I knew it all

When I was a teen and knew it all, I was certain I had all the answers.

As an adult I have come to realize that I didn’t even know the questions.

I was never one to listen to my mother when she said “don’t run with that crowd” or “don’t date that doucher”.

In all honesty, I still don’t listen to mother…force of habit.

I made a lot of mistakes along the way and I’ve paid the price.

I’ve lived and I’ve learned.

Now that I’m a mother I worry about my daughter and the unavoidable fact that she’ll be a lippy teen before I know it.

I can handle a little rebellion…I think that’s probably natural instict as a teen….but I hope that I can teach her to make better choices then I did.

It was like a magnetic force that pulled me towards the baddest boy around.

I couldn’t help it, Im a sucker for a bad boy.

I can’t think of a single boyfriend that didn’t have a criminal record.

I married a felon.

(FYI-you have to check a “special” box on the marriage license if you’re marring a felon. Believe me…it’s no gold star)

I have friends that are still in prison, some that will likely never get out….it’s probably in the best intrest of society.

I have friends that are dead and buried…all I can do now is visit a tombstone.

People I once considered friends are now nothing more than an addict looking for their next fix. The person I knew was gone…only their frail and worn bodies left….no soul, no concious….nothing.

My friends include drug lords, gang bangers, thieves and straight up street thugs.

When my bestie & I look back at our teen years we’re amazed and grateful to still be alive.

(btw-my bestie & I are all that remain from a once notorious posse)

My girlfriends all have children, many with more than one drug lord sperm donor.

Three kids with three different dads by the age of 22 isnt exactly every girls fantasy.

For some girls though this is the reality of the rest of their lives.

You know so much and you got life by the balls….and suddenly your actions have you by the balls and every action has a consequence.

I myself, have an arrest record that I’m going to have to explain to my own daughter one day.

You thinks it’s hard facing your parents and explaining your actions?

(believe me, it wasnt easy facing my mother when she picked me up from jail or explaining to her that i had been busted shoplifting)

Imagine explaining your actions to your daughter someday, a daughter that absolutely adores you and believes you would never do wrong because…well…because you’re momma.

Not planning on having kids?

Yeah…me neither.

Yet, here I am….I didn’t intend to have kids but I certainly don’t regret becoming a mother.

She is the greatest gift I never even knew I wanted.

I’m not saying that I regret the things i’ve done because each thing I did & bad boy I befriended made me who I am today because I’ve learned so much through experience.

I share these stories in hopes that some 16 year old girl that knows it all as I once did, won’t have to see what I’ve seen, felt what I’ve felt and survived what I’ve survived.

I am not mother of the fucking year

The lovelies over at The Mommyologist and Life Without Pink are having a contest to see who is NOT the mother of the year.

NOT Mom of the Year Award

Although this contest has rules

Contest Rules:

*First and foremost, this contest is JUST FOR FUN.  We cannot stress this point enough.  Let’s face it…we all do things as moms that make us less than perfect in the parenting department, but that does NOT mean that we are doing anything wrong or that we aren’t good mothers to our children.  We ask that while reading/viewing the contest entries, that you be respectful of each and every person who enters.  This is NOT a free-for-all for you to criticize anyone’s parenting skills just because they are different from your own.  If you read a post or watch a vlog and do not like what the author has to say, please just leave the blog and refrain from leaving her any negative comments.  We do not want anyone to feel judged or inadequate in any way, shape, or form. Again, THIS IS SUPPOSED TO BE FUN!

…..This is still my kinda contest because we all know that I am SO NOT mother of the year.

For those who don’t know, lemme explain…

I am NOT mother of the fucking year.

I’m the mother that rocks the Ozzy red & Stefani blond hair, tattoos, piercings and cusses like a drunken Irish trucker.

There is nothing in my veins but caffeine, nicotine and fucking awesomeness

I’m the mother that went the distance to terminate the ‘fathers’ parental rights, thus making him nothing more than a DNA donor.  What kind of mother rids their child’s life of a father anyway?! This kind bitch. Drug addicts have no business parenting in my book….or my house.

At the PIT’s baptism the minister held her up over his head like on the Lion King introducing the newly baptised baby to the congregation and the newly baptised baby said in a soft baby voice “shit” as she pointed up to the ceiling fan.  She was 14 months old and had recently picked up a new favorite word…shit. (So fine, my brother isn’t technically the ONLY reason I’m going to hell)

She didn’t even know she was biracial until she was 5….then she wanted to know why she looked like she should speak Spanish #fail

There were times that Dora the Explorer was the best baby sitter I ever had.  Now she’s a huge fan of Animal Planet for some reason and I’m not going to lie…Animal Planet is a great sitter as well.

Speaking of animals, we have a jungle cat who usually IS in the bathroom and we call him bastardcat

Some mornings when she crawls in bed with me and says “Mama, can we have ice cream for breakfast?” I simply say “Hell yes. Get mama a bowl too will ya?” to which she always happily replies “Mhmm. You’re the bestest mama”

The kid rarely ever to never matches and she changes her clothes 185879940 times a day and I never say a word about it.  She looks like Punky Brewster and her room looks like a clothing factory fucking exploded yet she can always locate what she’s looking for.

I don’t cook and I refuse to learn even though gramma says “Its so easy C”

 

I will not participate gramma, EVER

UMMM, that is not the point gramma. I’M NOT COOKING.

We live in the frozen tundra called Minnesota and she wears a dress all year round. Why? Because she LOVES dresses thats why and she doesn’t care if it is -40 degrees. She wears her dresses with jeans….like a cute lil hippy Punky Brewster.

It was my little girl who requested “earl had to die” as the first song at Auntie April’s wedding, and it was my daughter who said “I love ice cream, if I could, I would marry it, eat it and divorce it”

When she just doesn’t feel like getting dressed…she doesn’t and if it’s not a work day…neither do I

I cuss…loudly when I watch the news or take about work.  I use words like ‘jackfuck’ and ‘crotch vomit’  several times a day.

I should be far more medicated than I am (Can someone PLEASE get to work on a spray-form of Xanax?!)


I love her with all my heart but somedays I just want her to shut the fuck up. In my defense…she’s been talking since she was 9 months old….non fucking stop

There are rules in my house like “No crying if you get hurt fucking around” and “whiners are weeeeeners”

She dances to…brace yourself prudes…Beyonce’

I’m tired, wore out, lame and irritable 6 out of 7 days and sometimes…I *really* need a break.

I have to google shit to help her with her homework. (Why the fuck is she learning division in the 2nd grade?! Why the fuck do I STILL not get division?!)

Last but not least, I cheat at boardgames.

Well way to freaking go Beyonce’

Did you hear?

Beyonce’ is completely responsible for every single girl that ends up grinding and dry humping a fucking stage across the country.

She’s turned our daughters into little spandex covered sluts.

Mhmmm, ALL Beyonce’s fucking fault.

At least that’s what I heard and you know how I love to blow the bullshit whistle

(yes, I keep making up new & useful whistles)

so here we go~

I’m a mother

(damn good one at that)

My daughter is 8 and in case you missed it….she’s incredibly gorgeous. No lie…she really is.

She has her mother’s long & lean figure but she has dark hair and stunning eyes

Her personality is no match to her beauty either…this kid is pretty amazing.

Recently, at family fun nite, the PIT danced to Beyonce’s “Shoulda put a ring on it”

a catchy lil tune that has apparently caused quite a ruckus

Granted, the PIT was wearing her regular jeans & t-shirt and not a skimpy dance outfit but none the less, this is still Beyonce’s fault right?

Really?

Really people?!

The PIT & the kids in this other story were NOT dancing on a pole for money.

They were dancing to a song, a rather popular song that the PIT, like many other kids, heard on Alvin and the Chipminks.

Technically. Its the chipmunks fault.

Furry little bastards.

The Chipmunks are totally to blame for strippers.

Right?

Just blame SOMETHING, SOMEONE right?

No sane woman would ever willingly dance on a pole for money.

Right?

Bullshit.

She would if she had bills to pay, tuition to pay, a child to feed…

she would if she needed to in order to survive.

It has nothing to do with Beyonce or the chimpunks.

Why does anyone have to be at fault?

Seriously, doom my daughter, shake your finger at me because my daughter danced

(very well)

to a Beyonce song?

I think not.

My daughter is raised by ME….not a song or pop star.

I’m way cooler than any pop star anyway

I’m fully aware that my daughter is gorgeous and if not raised well…she would have excellent potential to use her looks in a less than favorable manor.

Which is precisely why I raise her well.

My daughter also loves to dance to Janis Joplin, Brooks & Dunn and of course, Led Zeppelin.

Wanna make something of it?

**See…..my attitude will corrupt her way before any song a furry chipmunk can sing**


So TECHNICALLY….it’s my own fault.

It’s my own fault that my daughter is allowed to listen to such crap like Beyonce and Bieber

It’s my own fault she loves all kinds of music….Bob Marley to Shinedown…the girl has excellent taste.

It’s my own fault my daughter is smart enough to know the difference between dancing to a song and dry humping a pole

It’s my own fault that the diva changes her clothes 50,000 times yet never crosses the “too risky” line

The only “risky” thing she has are her damn running shorts.

I have yet to understand why the fuck they need to be so short. What happened to knee length?!

If you ask me, its the damn clothing companies making it a bit too easy for girls to show off their junk.

The point being,

(yes I have one)

is that regardless of what the kid’s dancing to….

it doesn’t change who she’s being raised by.

Her mother.

(Who happens to be a bitch)

It won’t change the incredible person that she will grow up to be

It’s music…..lighten the fuck up

As far as the “outfits” mentioned in the article….well, lets just say this…

the PIT’s dance instructor would have changed the “outfits” after meeting a mother like me.

Moms Nite Out at the PITs school

Well that was close.

I apologize for the delay in posting but my blog was being a bitchface and ran off for a bit (whore)

I’ve regained control of this bitch so let’s get back to business.

What business?

Bragging about how fucking awesome my spawn is of course.

I had planned to do this on Thursday (National Moms Nite Out) but noooooooo, the blog wanted to be a bitch.

(I’m always going to be the bigger bitch here mr blog so fuck with me again and you’re fired)

Thursday was National Moms Nite Out and it was also Family Fun Nite at the PIT’s school.

It seemed fitting….I get to celebrate my nite out doing what I love to do…..being mama!

The PIT had been obnoxiously excited for this event all week.

She LOVES these events and Im not gonna lie….so do I.

Even though when I go to her school I’m one of the only moms without a hubby, the only mom with Ozzyred & Stefaniblonde hair, and fabulous tattoos.

At the PIT’s school….I am an oddball and Im ok with that.

I did my research when I moved to the city….I knew that where I could afford to live was not the place I wanted her to go to school.

Thanks to open enrollment and a lot of praying, I was able to get her into one of the top public schools in this state.

A school that is VERY family oriented, culturally diverse and can be a bit uppity.

(which makes these types of functions even more fun for me)

Have you ever seen “The New Adventures of the Old christine”?

Ya know those 2 snotty woman that pick on Christine?

That’s pretty much how my night was.

Did it phase me? Not so much.

I kind of enjoy the look on the faces of judgmental women when they realize they are not going to break me.

The PIT was playing with her bff’s and I was left alone on the playground…..two women approached me and introduced themselves….they asked if I was the PIT’s mom, to which I proudly said

“Yes indeed! Thats my girl”.

One of the women then asked me with a smirk “And where is here father?”

I replied with an even better smirk and a look in my eyes that said “Just fucking try me lady”…..

“I’m right here. Legally, the court papers say that I am in fact THE PARENT to this kid.”

The look on her face was priceless, her silence was golden.

I went on to explain

“My ex-husband was a meth addict. I divorced him, left town, terminated parental rights and started over again with a baby on my hip.  It’s been me & the girl since day one.”

The woman replied “Aww, thats too bad”.

(I hate it when people pity me for no fucking reason)

“That must be so hard for your daughter”.

Annoyed and trying to keep from dropping the f-bomb I replied

“It is too bad that my ex husband was too stupid to see what he was going to miss.  My daughter is healthy, happy and at the moment running circles around your kids so I’d say she’s adjusted pretty well to our life together.”

Leaving it at that, I walked away and joined the PIT and her friends in a game of hopscotch.

Then we were off…the PIT has things to show me….like NOW.

First up was her stick sculpture.  Her ‘team’ made a stick sculpture they called “The Twizzle House”

The PIT and her team!

The PIT and her bff getting into the Twizzle House

Giggles in the Twizzle House!!

After a tour of the sculpture garden it was time to get our name in the door prize drawing box.

The PIT won about 5 minutes after she put her name in the box! WootWoot!

She won a new book to add to her collection (that she’s already read and has donated to the new girl in our apartment)

She loves to give as much as she loves to get…..it’s amazing to watch her grow into such a caring, respectful little person.

Next we were off to see the “baskets” her class and the others had made for the raffle drawings.

These baskets were friggin awesome! The kids did a great job!!

The PIT’s class put together a “cooking” basket

Looks great ey?!  Yeah, I didn’t put my name in this one….really, what the hell am I going to do with a cooking basket?!

I went for the Twins basket (and did not win lol)

and the PIT decided to try for the “My Favorite Things” basket

She didn’t win either but we still had a great time!!

After the raffle drawing it was time to get our dance on!

The PIT loves to dance…she danced her little booty off that night!!

Can you hear them giggle?! It was too friggin cute!

Ahahahahaha YES the Robot!!

See the adults in the background (that I cut off) Yeah, those are moms that the PIT drug out on the dance floor…she wasn’t taking NO for an answer!

Here she is with her 1st grade teacher…mhmm…even she had to shake what her mama gave her!

Guess what song she’s dancing too…..Beyonce’ Shoulda put a ring on it….See who has the wrong hand up hehe

The PIT has a small fan following….Bella tried her best to keep up with her!  Both Bella & the PIT were little sweat balls when they were done…and they were both grinnin ear to ear.

After the dance party the PIT posed with her ‘posse’

Someone’s divalicious…..

The night wrapped up with a sing along

and Bella, still trying her best to keep up with the big girls…..

Dear not so random ‘hater’—you’re an asshole

According to my records (lol, records. Right, like Im organized)

According to the dates on past blog posts–it seems that FW1 aka Jacko aka Rufus, wandered into MY domain and started spewing some really off the wall crazy shit talk for no apparent reason.

None of the insults were actually insults because you see, none of them were anywhere near relavant to me, my blog, or my life.  I barely read his comments because he lost me after the first attempted insult.  This douchers opinion was so obnoxiously wretched, it was hard to believe a person actually thought like that.  First I took the good advise from fellow bloggers that said “walk away…just walk away”.  I deleted comments, took posts down, blocked the fuckwads ip address, and moved on.

Then, another mommyblogger, who also happens to be a dear friend of mine—like since high school kinda friend, contacts me…….she had been get ‘hate mail’ on her freshly started blog.  We blocked the ip address, the same fucking one I had blocked on my own blog weeks earlier.  I was irritated that this assclown was still harrassing women, not just any woman—-my friends.  In my best attempt to take the high road, I let it go. We blocked the ip address and if he really wanted to fight with someone that bad & went back to this badass mama friend of mine, well then, good.  Fuck with her–just try–you’ll be taking your ballsak home in a ziplock bag IF you’re lucky and she throws em back at you instead of crushing them with a big ass mallet.

Catch up here —

A few days ago he struck again.  Again, a mommyblogger who just started her blogging endeavour.  Again he comes along to piss on her parade.

“The Hater” said,

April 19, 2010 at 4:23 pm

I’m the hater. I will gladly say I think single moms, all the whining you ladies bring to the table, is nonsense.

You and all your single mom Twitter friends are most likely single moms because no man in his right man could deal with the whiney, I’m an independent woman nonsense. You’re not independent, at all, you have to have the rally cry of these other women and those on Twitter to feel good about yourself.

If you’re such a great mom, quit talking about, do it. We don’t need to hear about your kids, don’t care about where you take them, that you will one day be spending my hard earned tax money because you chose to keep reproducing, just shut up already.

All I have to say. Better luck to you in the future.

Now, seriously. What the FUCK is your problem dude? You *think* single moms, all the whining we bring to the table is nonsense?!  First of all, you should be thankful a lady brings ANYTHING to ANY table and quite frankly, if you don’t like our gawddamn tea parties, why the fuck are you still lurking?! Are you waiting for an invite fucker? Second, when you say things like *think* it implies you have a brain…which you then prove to not be true by continuing to speak. YOU’RE ASSHOLE IS SHOWING. AGAIN. Icka.

For example, when you say “You and all your single mom Twitter friends are most likely single moms because no man in his right man could deal with the whiney, I’m an independent woman nonsense. You’re not independent, at all, you have to have the rally cry of these other women and those on Twitter to feel good about yourself.”  I say, once I have stopped laughing my ass off, are you fucking high sir?  Have you ANY idea why ANY of us are single?! Do any research to back your shit talk up? I mean really dude-we fucking wrote the gawddamn book about who we are–we blog–its all right in front of your fucking face if you’d READ it you’d SHUT THE FUCK UP because you would see that you’re just being a dick. Yeah I could just block you again but Im on to you fucker…..you just move on down the list of mommyblogger links and attack at random.  I’m here to save you the trouble of searching.  I dont have to rally shit dude….I’ll argue you all you want…and then I’ll feel better thanks to YOU.  I LIKE pointing out assclowns.  Its fun for me.

THIS is my absolute FAV btw–”If you’re such a great mom, quit talking about, do it. We don’t need to hear about your kids, don’t care about where you take them, that you will one day be spending my hard earned tax money because you chose to keep reproducing, just shut up already.”  Bwahahahahhahaha….shoot! Spit on my screen a bit but damn thats funny dude.  I’d like to know who “we” is….the fucking turd in your pocket?! And if the turd and you don’t care about our kids then why the fuck are you stalking MOMMYBLOGGERS—they blog about their kids in case the title MOMMYBLOGGER wasnt clear.  Also, in regards to ‘your hard earned tax money’ I say this…bitch fuck you. Who the fuck do you think you’re talking to?! Oh thats right you didnt bother to check first. Here’s the deal. I don’t use your tax money for shit mother fucker. In fact, MY hard earned tax money is used the same fucking way yours is because I HAVE A JOB. AMAZING I know but working mommys is a big thing these days.  Also, you arrogant asshole, I CHOSE NOT to reproduce. Technically, you owe me some tax money for NOT reproducing dick.

So all I have to say to you sir is….keep bringin it.  I’ll keep proving you wrong by raising my girl (who is already a far better person than you), working so I can pay MY taxes and still have time to come back here and remind you that you suck a being a human.

Mommybloggers–if you have hate mail…feel free to contact me. Keep his caca off your pretty blogs and leave the shit tossing to me:)

Turns out, I *AM* the bitch you love to hate. I’m not gonna lie. It feels fabulous!

Remember that one time, no not at band camp-I went to & was kicked out of church camp ok-get off my back. Where was I going with this?! Oh yes.  Some of you may remember this post….

There’s something about this song that just gets me…..  

Dying Days” Brandi Carlile

  I left home a long long time ago
In a tin can for the road
With a suitcase and some songs
Chasing miles through the night time
Making tracks with no time for looking back
To the place where I belong

How these days grow long
But I’m on my way back home
It’s been hard to be away
How I miss you and I just want to kiss you
And I’m gonna love you till my dying day
How these days grow long
  

 When your sad you know I wish I could be there
To make your sorrows disappear
And set your troubles free
It’s not fair for me to be this far from you
But I promise to stay true, wherever I might be
  

 Time keeps burning
The wheels keep on turning
Sometimes I feel I’m wasting my days
How I miss you and I just want to kiss you
And I’m gonna love you till my dying day
How these days grow long
Time keeps burning on
How these days grow long
  

 Now I’m lost in a sea of sunken dreams
While the sound of drunken screams echos in the night
But I know all of this will come to pass
And I’ll be with you at last forever by your side
  

 How these days grow long
But I’m on my way back home
It’s been hard to be away
How I miss you and I just want to kiss you
And I’m gonna love you till my dying day
  

 Time keeps burning
The wheels keep on turning
Sometimes I feel I’m wasting my days
How I miss you and I just want to kiss you
And I’m gonna love you till my dying day
How these days grow long
Time keeps burning on
How these days grow long
  

Still a damn good song, one of my favorites fo sho.  When I posted this a while back I was simply strolling along, minding my own business, expressing myself and enjoying a damn good song…right here, on this blog…MY BLOGMy domain, literally, I bought it so when a troll entered my domain and starting pissing all over it….well I was fucking pissed.  Instincts kicked in and I immediately fought back and so did my friends, they stepped in and added their 2 cents….not defended me because I dont need defending but supporting me—there is a difference.  I’m perfectly cabable of taking care of myself.  I greatly appreciate the support of all my friends–reminds me that there are still good people in this world and Im damn grateful to have them in my life.  Back when all this went down, people kept telling me to “let it go” and “stop arguing” and so eventually I shut up….for a while.  Im done. 

It’s my duty to call the assclown, small minded, hateful, trolls that prey on single mamas THE FUCK OUT.

Meet “proof that some people are just plain fuckwads” #1….here by known as FW1 (clever, I know)

FW1 said this:

I read your ‘It’s like this’ page and you don’t rock at all. It’s always the little pukes who talk the loudest. Fuck you. I would like to beat the shit out of you

A GOLDEN OPPORTUNITY!! Look I know that opinions are like assholes and everybodys got one but DUDE–yours is showing.  Thank you for helping me to prove my point–SOME men are complete and total dickwads.  So, FW1 was strolling through cyberspace, came across MY blog and suddenly felt the need to tell me & the world that he would love to beat a woman like me. FTR-a woman like me would love to be the one to beat the shit outta you with your own dick. Just saying.   Since I like to argue, I responded to FW1…

Awesome. So glad you read that post and then posted a comment on a completely unrelated post. If you disliked the first post so much why did you click to leave a comment on this post? Theres a little red ‘X’ in the upper right hand corner of your screen–if you dont like what I have to say–click the ‘X’ and move the fuck on. Pukes like me are only loud when we’re provoked by fucks like you. You’d like to beat the shit outta me? For what exactly? Living my life? Fuck you. This isnt your story, this isnt your blog, in fact…this has NOTHING to do with you so if you dont like it here, get to steppin

Thanks for droppin by bitch-Im off to ROCK the shit outta this motherhood bit. Todays lesson: Respect for others and when to use the “if you dont have anything nice to say dont say anything at all” option.

FW1:

I will give you the reason why I would so love to beat the shit out of you. But first of all, let me tell you who I am. I am a 40 yr old man, single and never married, no kids. So, now before you spew your epithets of ‘haha, you can’t get laid!’ or, ‘you’re a loser, you’re single!’ let me pre-emptively strike you before you spew those things by saying that I already know everything about you. Like most people today, I have seen three of my close friends get married and within one or two years divorce. Looking back, it is clear to me this was a strategy on their wives part to acquire a baby and that’s it. Just get the sperm and split, then file for divorce, limit visitation and alienate the father. One of my friends even had the ex claim child abuse, which I found out is a common ‘chess move’ to limit visitation even more, making it easier for the mother to turn the kid against papa. I’ve seen it all. So what does this have to do with you? Very simple, like so many modern women today, you are claiming to be strong and independent, but you start your post with a song, saying “There’s something about this song that just gets me…..” This makes you a pussy, the very opposite of strong. I don’t need to find out any more about you, that speaks for everything. You cannot have it both ways, you cannot be strong, independent and ‘kick ass and rock on’, and be a soft little flower longing for your soul mate. Haha-fucking ha on you, bitch. And here is another thing. Children from single parent homes fare much worse than children from intact families, so you are at a huge disadvantage. Actually, you really are your average single momma. Just because you say you’re not doesn’t mean you’re not. What about you is unique? You’re just a woman, and like so many today, you are trying to be a man. No wonder you are single, you are a fucking little child with a cinderella complex, covering it up with a cowboy hat. Who could live with someone like you? Ok, I’m done. Fuck, it would be fun though to give you a good ass-whipping. Maybe stick in your head in the toilet boil and screw you from behind first, though. Have a nice day.

Now seriously. It’s one thing to have an opinion, its one thing to be an asshole–it’s an entirely different thing when you throw your horseshit hatred at me and my friends.  Like picking on mamas do ya? Heres the deal haters. BRING IT.

I repiled to FW1:

So fuckwad lemme get this straight. In addition to beat the shit outta me youd like to and I quote —”stick in your head in the toilet boil and screw you from behind first, though”. Is that what gets you off? Beating and raping women. And you single? Shocker.

I didnt ask about you or your friends because, well quite frankly, I dont care. But yet you were kind enough to drp by MY blog yet again and spew your shit. Gonna put me in my place are ya? Pssssshh—bitch please. If youre friends are anything like the classy wad of fuck that you are then I pity the ex wives.

And yes, you’re *so* right. I invested 7 years of my life just to get his sperm. This is *exactly* what I had planned.

Im not “claiming” to be strong & independant, bitch I am strong & independant. Children from single parents are doomed? Uh huh, so Id say its safe to say you are from a single parent home. Is that what youd like to blame you crazy babble on? Its douchebags like you that make me quite proud to be a single momma. Id rather raise my child without the influences of a possible rapist.

Who the fuck are you to say I cant have it all? Im a pussy because this song gets me? Good.
Ignorant and narrow minded fucks like you make me sick. Bitter much? Christ! Get a blog and vent dude. Take your shit talk somewhere else….nobodys buyin it

You’d like to beat the shit outta me? Id like to shoot you right in the dick.

*Enter my girly RockStarMomma30 (seriously-dont fuck with her unless you’re prepared to carry your balls home in a ziplock baggie)

Let the psycho analysis begin…

Listen, “Jack-o”ff:

First and foremost, let’s address this bending a woman over the toilet and fucking her as well as kicking her ass. I certainly hope that you are on the registered sex offenders list because not only is this illegal without a woman’s consent, but it is also morally wrong AND a pathetic and insulting way of trying to “come back” at my dear friend when she has obviously backed you into a corner and you have nothing else remotely intelligent to say except to verbally threaten rape, battery, and assault. In case you did not read, fucktard, she packs heat and she’s not afraid to use it, so good luck with that one big guy. Let me guess, you are the pervert that everyone imagines, sitting behind their computer desk, watching illegal videos on illegal websites of women being raped and tortured to death all the while jerking off to it. Have you wondered why the keys on your keyboard are sticking? It’s from you spumming on it you sick mother fucker.

Secondly, You’re 40 years old, have never been married (thank God for the women out there BTW), and have no children (thank God for that as well because I’m getting a sexual molester vibe from you). How fucking sad is that? You have nothing better to do with your time but sit behind your computer screen and read random blogs by smart, independent, single mother’s just trying to find their way through life without getting attached to small cocked pions like you that have no clue on how to treat a woman. There are too many of you in the world and YOU, my (more then likely) ugly, fat, balding, jerking off in the shower to mental fantasies of beating and raping a woman, are the epitome of why many women have made the CHOICE to be single, especially single mothers as they do have a child to protect. You are a disgrace to your gender sex and deserve my size 8 1/2 shoved up your ass sideways…but wait…40, single, no kids? You may get off on that sort of thing – no judgement here my loose assholed friend. You’re 40 now, so imagine you in another 20 years…You’ll be sick fuck sitting at the end of a bar somewhere with a long handled mirror using it to look up women’s skirts as they pass by, and then later propositioning them for sex. Spank it much, “Jack-o”ff??? I’m sure you do considering your warped view on single women/mothers. No woman in their right mind would let your disease ridden cock within 20 feet of them.

Speaking of warped views, this brings me to number 3. Do you honestly believe that your friends marriages fell apart all due to their spouses? News flash, dick-lick, 42% of marriages dissolve in the first 5 years these days, and if your friends have any of the same contributes as you, I am happy for their ex-spouses. Hanging out with the likes of you definitely does not put a feather in their cap. It is also a fact that, you mentally challenged IDIOT, that many of those broken marriages occur AFTER a child is born to the relationship because the men feel threatened by the amount of time and love the mother has for the baby, and hence feel neglected. There is a reason behind why most child custody cases favor the mother, because men like you can’t handle the pressure. Let’s also address your belief that all these ex-spouses wanted was their, shall we call it, man juice SOLELY for the intent of getting pregnant with your friends demon spawn JUST to collect a child support check? REALLY? I am amazed you, or your friends for that matter, can even find your penis’ in the morning to piss. Since you have no children, I’m not amazed at all that you are unaware that being a single parent is hard fucking work. Let me guess, you misogynistic piece of shit, you are the type of pig that believes that a woman’s place is in the kitchen and that we should have nothing else intelligent to say unless it’s approved by the man? That bra was burnt in the seventies ass-lick. It is hard enough to make ends meet with 2 incomes in a family, much less be single, a woman with men like you out there, and have a child to support without government aid OR a support check from the worthless father. That, assclown, is exactly what my friend, the one that you were so quick to criticize, deals with everyday. But you would’ve known that if you had taken time to read ANY of her other posts.

Let me take a stab at your general “profile.” You are a male, 40 years old (as already stated), 5′8″ – 6′2″, dark, short hair, fat (200-250 maybe), and balding. you probably work in a male predominated “career” since you’re threatened by women or you have a desk job where there is little interaction needed with other’s because you are a fucking freak and have nothing original to say. You grew up in a 2 parent,middle to lower class, home where, figuratively speaking, your father brought home the bacon while your mother stayed at home to cook, clean and tend to the offspring. You spent your teenage years fantasizing about ass-raping small farm animals and capturing dogs and cats and torturing them to death (maybe not the last sentence, but reading your mindless babble has me believing that you could be a serial killer). You more then likely grew up watching your father degrade and beat your mother, all the while believing that this was ok because the man rules in his home. This would explain your threats to kick my friends ass. You were either possibly sexually abused by a relative or you were an ugly ass child who never had a date and were always the last to be chosen, even over girls, for school sport teams. This would explain your bitterness toward strong women in general as well as your would be fetish for raping women from behind over a toilet. More then likely you rely on prostitutes for your sexual needs and have had several venereal diseases as a result. You are, and will continue to be through the rest of your years, a lonely, sad man and will probably end up killing yourself. 9 times out of 10 though, I’m betting your true bitterness toward women comes from you falling head over heels in love with a woman sometime in the past, she did not return your feelings of intimacy, broke your heart and took a shit on it right in front of you with a smile on her face.

Suck up the pain you dickless wonder, and quick stealing other peoples thunder all because you’re a self-hating jack ass that likes to make other people feel bad because it makes you feel good to have other’s on your level. Quit being a weiner and get a shrink

Don’t even try to keep up with me intellectually. I can almost feel my IQ dropping 10 points just having to remind you of what a fucker you are. In ending, and I’m sure I speak for most single parents and parents in general…KISS MY ASS.

The end.

See, told ya not to fuck with her but nooooo, too cool to listen to me.  GOOD! This is pure entertainment for me & my girly! You actually think you’re going to break us? Gimme a fucking break haters. There is nothing you can do to break us.  You are providing us with a good chuckle so for that–thank you

After blocking FW1′s ip address he changed his identity.  I’m flattered! You love to hate me that much??!! Bwahahahahahha You funny. You’re also ignorant which was proven, yet again

FW1:

Well, where to begin? I wish I could give you comfort by reporting that I am all of what you say: short, fat and bald I am 6′3, 185lbs and a mane of dark hair that is both thick and lush. I have had girlfriends and I was the one to dismiss them. Again, I know this is problematic because it points to the disjunction between your worldview and reality. Your profile pic tells a story in itself: a black and white photo of you and your lovechild posing sexually before the camera, pouty lips and all. (OMG! How dare you! GASP!) Yes, what more sign of narcissim than that? I already know everything about you and your husband, too. Thanks for that. Well, you have humiliated him by posting here, and in so doing, humiliated yourself. Hope you’re happy about that. How, do you ask? Because you’ve displayed the vanity at the base of every woman’s heart. Your baby as status-symbol, sperm acquisition. Kind of like a piece of jewelry, or an expensive accessory. Tell me, who wears the pants in your family? Your husband? I doubt it. How could a modern woman allow that? Do you share responsibilities equally? How so?

The reason my posts were met with such passion is because of the resounding truth to them. A divorced woman will founder in her search for loving relationships. Men simply do not respect narcissistic women. You and your friend have demonstrated that you are. So you’re divorced? What this tells a guy is that you pick the wrong men, or that even when you’re in a critical situation (like being a parent), you can’t keep the father around. Is the father a jerk? Perhaps, but again – YOU picked him!

In either case, you chose to have this children, and for whatever reason the children’s father isn’t around, as he should be. This isn’t a reflection on the men you date from here on; it’s a reflection on you. I’m sorry, but it’s true.

Remember: there is nothing so selfish as having children in the first place! After all, the children don’t ask to be born – YOU decided that FOR the child. For that reason, you owe them everything – and every possibility for success in this difficult world. By not having the father around, these kids are already at a disadvantage.

Why would a man want that much trouble? Further, just because the man loves the mother, that doesn’t mean that he’s going to love the children, nor must the children love the man! He has had nothing to do with their upbringing thus far, and, depending on your point of view, may have no involvement in their future upbringing either!

Now, you’re really going to hate this: men with kids aren’t the challenge for women that women with kids are for men! Why not? Because of many reasons including:

* Men rarely get sole custody of children in divorces at the worst; they have shared custody, and often not even that, and
* Men usually have some other “support” group to watch the kids – when they’re at work for instance.

Having children is the most important decision you will ever make in your life. Frankly, it affects your life in profound ways – including your relationships. You’re just going to have to live with the fact that your choices have impacted your own possibility of getting – and keeping – a fulfilling relationship; that that it’s impossible, but it is much more difficult. This isn’t my rule – it was here when I arrived.

Do you have any response even remotely intelligble, my little drama queen? I must admit, I had to laugh when you said you wanted to stick your foot up my ass. There are many men -most men, who intuitively and instinctively defer to women, in the form of chivalry. But this is trend is fading away, slowly but certainly. Of course, moving furniture and heavy equipment will still be done by men, but courtship is another thing entirely. So when I hear a woman like yourself say that she will put her foot up my ass, my response is, “Do you think I am so nice I won’t return the gesture”? You will lose, cupcake. I outweigh you. The altercation wouldn’t last but a few minutes. I could care less about your protestations, calling Dateline NBC, your husband, bla bla bla.

So there you have it, princess. No, I am not a psycho in some basement. Although I admit I am a weirdo, just not a psycho. No, my father never abused my mother. He was the principal breadwinner, and I grew up in an upper-middle class home in the suburbs. No, I never faced rejection. In fact, I had women chasing me, which is quite the ego-enhancer. Currently, I am taking a few years off from my position as a ship’s officer, to gain another perspective on life. As I stated before, I have so many of my guy friends divorce, I made the decision to not marry. As it turns out, 70% of all divorces are initiated by the woman, and the reason is not abuse, or neglect, or alcoholism. It is because the wife is bored. (*shock*) Additionally, courts award the child to the wife, and in many instances, the ex wife will knowingly and willingly teach the child to hate the papa. So Sad. Furthermore, custody is not based on parental capability, but a bias which favors women. Or is that womyn? In any event, it has soured the whole institution of marriage for me, and the reasons I have stated above.

So now what about you, though? You have demonstrated that you will pose sexually for the camera with your love-child, pouty lips and all? What can we deduce from this? Narcissism? We certainly can. But how will that affect your relationship with your husband? I mean, you do need him, don’t you? Or do you? Are you independent, socially and financially? Can you leave him, if you had to? What happens when you are no longer fulfilled? Are you even educated? If you don’t have at least a BA or BSc, it is tits up for you, sister. Your stuck. So what is the future for you? Looks fade away. Soon, sooner than you will like to admit, those pouty lips will no longer be marketable. The baby attached to your breasts will grow, and a new identity will be required. For you, the roles are limited. You can be a Mom, an American Mom, that’s about it. Me, well, as it turns out, things get better for men as we age. Happiness increases. Choices multiply. The properties which I own will only go up, as I purchased them after the crash when they were cheap. There is no way out for you, though. You will age, and your looks will fade. Sorry about that.

As for ‘notyouraverage singlemomma’, well, no need to elaborate. You’re screwed, too. Have a nice day.

I’m not gonna lie. I barely even read this nonsense because it’s so fucking obvious this doucher has NO fucking idea who I am.  If you’re going to beat the shit out of me or “want” to (sick fuck) then you should at least hate me for me–you totally fucking missed here dude. But again, greatly amused by the ignorance! A simple reply was all that was needed.

Point proven. Some men are fuckwads.

Step off “rufus”, you’re not welcome here. In fact–you’re border line stalking.

However, lets not forget that this doucher attacked RockStarMomma30 for no good reason.  She finished with this masterpiece:

Okay, I’ll bite, but let’s get a few key points out of the way first. Since you were so kind to provide a little “background” I will too.

1. My “love child” as you called her is not a product of a previous relationship. She is my husbands. We are proud and wonderful parents and share the responsibility for her upbringing equally. She wants for absolutely nothing. She has her daddy’s attitude and my “narcissistic” mouth. All the better to put losers like you in their place as she grows, which I am quite proud of. Just as a warning, if you mention my child or say anything negative about her in any way again, I will be sure to turn you in to the proper authorities. She is, after all, an innocent child and her existence has nothing to do with you. Shame on you for even mentioning her…it shows your selfishness. No, I am NOT kidding about turning you in…mention something negative about her again ass face.

2. The photo that you speak of is the result of my wonderful husband being artistic with a camera…he took it…and I am very proud of his talents as he is a world renowned artist. A fact that had no impact on my decision to marry him when he asked without pressure from me. I am proud of him and am with him because I love him, with every piece of myself. We have a level of devotion to each other that a shallow prick like you will obviously never understand as you are too damn selfish. Who wears the pants in the family you ask? Neither of us do. Marriage is a partnership, where one leaves off, the other picks up. If I had to choose though, I would say him. I am happy that he likes being a man because in previous relationships I had to be because of what’s commonly known as the “Peter Pan” syndrome where boys don’t want to grow up and expect their significant other to be a mother to them which I’m sure would be the case with you. The photo itself represents a breakdown of the “bare” essentials of a love and protectiveness that a mother has for her child – something you will never understand. The fact that you noticed my “pouty lips” is just proof that you find me sexually attractive. What bother’s you more? The fact that my lips are naturally that pouty or that you would like to have sex with me? Thank you for the compliment by the way, I’ve never really seen my self as attractive, just confident. You’re right, my looks will eventually go, but not for a while since I have good genes so I’ll enjoy them while they last. When they’re gone, oh well. I’ll still be me, I’ll still have a wonderful husband who’s looks will also have faded, I’ll still be a great mother, but most importantly I will have known TRUE, UNCONDITIONAL love. That’s what’s important…not vanity, not looks….but love, something you will NEVER experience.

3. If you would like to talk about credentials, you shallow minded misogynistic pig, I currently have my BSN and am working on my master’s. Prior to that I was a CPA for 8 years before deciding that I was sick of numbers. I still do that part time, however, during tax season. You, my friend, steer a boat which any idiot can do. What did that take? A few months learning how to operate the machines that run the boat for you? Wow, big accomplishment there. As I mentioned in my previous post…A MALE DOMINATED CAREER. What am I talking about? You don’t even do that right now though as your taking a few years off to basically get your fucked up priorities straight! Silly me.

4. I am HAPPILY divorced. You’re absolutely right on one thing though, I chose VERY wrong. My ex-husband was not only an alcoholic, but an abusive one at that. He also was an adulterer. He wanted kids and I refused because I would not subject an innocent child to him. One night he came home drunk, cracked my skull, broke a few ribs, and when I woke from unconsciousness I found him puking in the toilet where I then decided to grab my aluminum baseball bat that I have affectionately named “Bruiser” and proceeded to nearly beat him to death with it. Afterwards I was kind enough to call an ambulance, mostly for me, but I could’ve shoved his ass into a closet and left him to die which he more then deserved. I’ve heard he’s impotent now from what I did to him…thank God. The abuse cycle ends with him as does his warped version of what works in a relationship. I should introduce you two as I’m sure you could be great friends. I filed a restraining order and charges and HE, you insolent idiot, filed for a divorce. Before you come up with some witty rebuttal that I turned him that way, you’re wrong, he was a dumbass before I met him, I just didn’t get references from his previous girlfriends. You see, I was that weak minded woman of your dreams while I was with him. I looked for the wrong attributes in a man; what would generally be referred to as a bad boy. I forbid myself to be in a relationship for 2 years following him, not because there weren’t offers, but because I needed to re-evaluate what I wanted in a man and taught myself to think differently – hence the way I am now. I did not embarrass myself nor my husband by posting here, because unlike you, he is not threatened by the thought of a strong woman. He revels in the fact that I can protect myself, and does not interceed when I proceed to beat the living shit out of small brained pions like you. I guess between the self defense classes, a black belt in Tae Kwon Do, and current kickboxing classes, he figures I can take care of myself. His mother is a lot like me, and raised him to not be intimidated by women. Too bad your mother didn’t do that for you…but I’ll skip the “yo mama” insults and proceed onto my next point because unlike you I’m not going to attack your family members. That is a low blow and I’d rather keep the fight between us.

5. I’ve got to ask, you use the term “love child” while referring to my daughter as well as “mane” referring to your hair. The sixties are long gone you worthless turd. Drop a few hits of acid for me though, this definitely would explain your version of a warped reality. Never mind, your from Canada, that explains your idiocracy all by itself…Eh? You said that you HAD women chase you. Key word: HAD. You also mention chivalry and how it applies to “courtship.” Chivalry is not fading or dead, it merely just comes in different forms. Chivalry used to mean opening doors, paying for meals, defending a woman’s honor, ect. Like most species though, we have evolved (maybe not in Canada). Chivalry now can be something as simple as doing the dishes after she cooks a meal, babysitting the children while she goes out and has a little fun with her girlies, or merely mowing the lawn and taking the remnants out to the dump. Not everything is as black and white as you see it, bone head.

6. Yes, I could definitely make it without my husband, I choose not to. I am not dependent on him for anything except for his love, devotion, and honesty, which I happily return. In fact, we’ve already discussed what would happen in a divorce, and we agreed to joint custody and no child support from either side – just a monthly donation to her college fund from both sides. I do not have a Cinderella complex, a daddy complex, or any related psychological problems, much to your disappointment I’m sure. I am well adjusted and completely, deliriously happy with what I consider my soul mate, lover, best friend, and confidant. Us having a child only strengthened our relationship and helped us work better as a team. I looked for years for a man like my husband, always coming up short finding men like you. Our child is NOT a status symbol as you suggested. My beautiful and intelligent daughter only cemented our devotion to each other and added to our wonderful family. I would not expect pond scum like you to understand that. I agree, having children is the most important decision you will ever make and that is does affect you in a profound way, including relationships. How convenient that you speak of something that you have never experienced. It’s like a person with no children telling a parent how to raise their child, and until you’ve experienced it first hand you have no room to instruct. You will NEVER now the joy of carrying a baby for 9 months, feeling it grow inside you, getting it’s precious little foot stuck in your ribs or bladder, and, when it’s time, pushing it out and seeing it’s beautiful face for the first time. That, my friend, is why custody goes to the mother because technically we’ve been a parent for longer…9 months longer to be exact. You see, for a mother parenting comes at conception. We make the sacrifices to keep the child healthy. For a man, parenting comes when the child is born.

If you want to have a character debate asshole, you’d better come at me with something allot better then what you have. The fact that you posted on this again, reiterating the same insults originally meant for my wonderful friend that I’ve known since high school, then twisting them and poorly attempting to apply them to me, proves that you have nothing original to say and that you have no idea what you’re talking about. You spoke of raping and beating women in your previous posts and then threatened to return the favor with my size 8 1/2. Try it fucktard, my friend will be there with me, and, as both her and I mentioned, she packs heat and is prepared to use it. I would simply wait for you to go down and then proceed with my 8 1/2. Your right, it wouldn’t be much of a fight. I never said I fight fair. As ShredderFeeder said, thank God you didn’t…or maybe can’t…procreate. Your particular brand of stupidity dies with you (BRAVO btw to ShredderFeeder). Times up needle dick…be real or be gone bitch…and yes, that’s exactly what you are, and after this post I think I’ll refer to you as MY bitch.

Have I mentioned that RockStarMomma30 should NOT be provoked?

 

Or that I love her and find the way she wipes the floor with brutal HONESTY and REALITY. 

 

 

So what’s the point of all this?  My mission. 

Dearest haters,

Search no more.  You feel the need to spew hateful and vicious insults at mothers, I get it, you’re fucked up. I’m here to help.  Now you have a place to spew your hatred.  Right here. With me. No more do you need to seek out other single mothers and try to tear them down just because you’re a piece of shit.  You like to argue and call names? ME TOO!  Bring it bitch.  Unlike you, my words are more than clever and equally vicious, THEY’RE TRUE.  I’d dont give a shit shat what you think about single mothers. I’ll argue with you and defend single mothers everywhere simply because I CAN and its in the best intrest of humanity that I blow the “YOU’RE A DICK” whistle more often.

Sincerely-

The bitch you love to hate

 

 

Revisiting my mission…

I generally keep quiet when it comes to talking about relationships shhlet’s face it…I don’t know shit about relationships

Or do I?

Depends how ya look at it I guess.

When I rip on my girlfriends (I’m always the bad friend reminding your girlfriends that they deserve betterwhisper so…step up your game before approaching my friends) they look at me like “yeah yeah…says SINGLE you” and with that look I’ll generally bite my tounge and continue to bash their boyfriends in my mind.

After all, who am I to say shit about relationships.

Well, when it comes to having a successful relationship, yes, I dont know Jack shit.

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However, when it comes to royally fucking up your life because of bad relationships, poor choices, letting it slide one to many times, hoping this is the last time he pulls that crap, crushing your soul because of you simply loved the wrong person far too much…when it comes to self destructing because of “him”…I know quite a bit.

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I can bitch and yell at my girls all I want…bust their mans balls day after day…in the end however it’s always up to them.  I was once the girl getting scolded for making excuses for the worthless turd….the one that wanted it to work so badly I overlooked things, let shit slide…believed him when he promised that this was the last time.

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I’ve been there…I know…lemme tell ya..some shits just plain unacceptable.

I hope my daughter never forgets for a second that she deserves nothing less than the best.

I hope that by telling my stories..women will be concious of their self worth and will never settle just so they’re not alone. It’s better to be alone and true to ones self than it is to sacrafice a shred of yourself to be with him…

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To thyne own self be true.

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I’m making it my mission to be the voice that wispers to women everywhere “you deserve what you accept” and reminds them “To thyne own self be true“.

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The girl with the scars and souvieners to tell the stories that only further prove the lesson Ive learned to be true…….

you only deserve what you accept.

Im gonna rock the shit outta this motherhood bit…

Pushing a person outta the devil chute can really change your perspective on things.

 Parents and parenting techniques vary as much as a child and a childs behavior.

Before I birthed a child from these loins I knew everything there was about kids…the were noisy and rather “in your face all the time” which I found rather annoying.  I have a very low tolerance for pretty much anything really so I just figured I pass on the parenting bit….until of course I met the PIT. I remember before I was “momma”…I would see that kid in the grocery store throwing that awful hissy fit or the obnoxious kid at a resturant and thinking…”hmpfh if that were my kid by golly…” funny how we know everything about parenting until we actually are parents. 

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Now as a parent I find myself feeling clueless…stumbling thru this crazy tangled mess of a life as a mom and a single/stubborn one at that!  I find myself almost daily using a quote or two that Ive picked up and carried with me thru life and passing that onto the PIT as I try my best to teach her….do I know what Im doing, is my way the right way for all, do I think I have all the answers?

Nope. Nope and nope…..hell I dont even know the fucking questions yet let alone the answers! 

Am I gonna rock the shit outta this motherhood bit

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and raise on hell of a respectful, independant, open minded, smart, caring, compassionate and quite frankly….a mighty force to be reckoned with?

 

I’m changing the world one lil baby rockstar at a time…..my own way~

  

Revisiting the “dad” issue

 
I wonder......
I wonder……

     

The dad issue is usually a dead issue unless the PIT is incredibly over tired and pissed at me or just having an emotional day. Her birthday is nearing and that always pulls at the heartstrings of both of us.  She wants a “mom & dad” just as bad as I want to be able to give her that but right now….we’re just not there yet.  Someday there will be someone to fill the void that was left in both of our lives but until then….I have keep my cool and my wicked tongue….bad mouthing the donor would be teaching the PIT the wrong lesson…..I keep the slander of my ex here…..for all of you to enjoy lmao but srsly…its in the kids best intrest that I keep on a blogging!       

 
I made a choice a long time ago to not bad mouth my ex husband in front of the PIT.  This choice has left me speachless in regards to the baby daddy.  I really dont have anything nice to say about him anymore.  It takes all of my strength to muster up a memory when the PIT  asks me something related to life before I was mommy.  Dont get me wrong….I have memories of my ex, not all were bad but trying to talk about them now makes me throw up in my mouth a lil bit. (I still cant say his name without filling with rage) I bite my tongue everytime she cries for him or thinks she wants him or throws a fit cause she “misses” him.   I roll my eyes & mumble under my breath “if you only knew girly if you only knew”……  I’ve had to try and explain the dad issue without telling her that he’s a worthless meth addicted gang banger somewhere in Cali. Is there a nice way to tell her the truth? I don’t think so, at least not at the age of 7. I’ve been able to get by with “your dad is doing his own thing and we’re doing ours”. When she asks if she will ever see him I just reply “anything is possible” which technically isn’t a lie. I do know that chances are pretty good she will never meet him, it is best that way. Meth addicts have no business being parents and I terminated his parental rights after he tried to kill me more than once.  Do I like the fact that Im a single parent? Somedays I do somedays I dont… Is this what I had in mind? Um no but it is what it is and Im going to do my best to make it without losing my mind (any further). Do I want the PIT to have a dad? Of course I do…..but he’s got to EARN us both.     

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Does not exactly telling the whole story make me a liar?    

Does it make me a bad mother?Guess it all depends who you ask.  I received a lovely email from someone who feels that I am indeed the worst mother on the planet and how dare I RIP my childs father away from her.  Apparently, someone missed a post or two…..I didn’t rip shit. I ran. Theres a difference. And if what I’m doing, raising a respectful, smart, caring, kind individual is wrong and makes me a bad mother then good.  The intriguing little creature is turning out quite nicely thanks to my bad solo parenting skills.  As far as change…I dont care.  Look, you try to kill your wife in a methbinge rage then you don’t get to be around children. Not even if you donated your DNA. Lesson to be learned here: Dont try to kill baby mama.

There’s more to being a dad than DNA

Mhmm, this post is Chapter 9 in the Book of Meth. A repeat I know. However, I like this one….to this day I KNOW I made the right choice going to court that day.

A recent post from the lovelys over at Singlemommyhood (yeah thats right-we have our own hood) reminded me that is more to being a dad than DNA….it feels good to have legal documentation of that now.

 

 

Get rid of him…..

Turns out that terminating parental rights is not an easy feat. The courts WANT parents to be involved and responsible for their children. Duh. Who doesn’t want that? What happens when one of the parents turns into a flaming douchebag by becoming a psycho meth addicted loser? Then what judge? You want me to sit here and hope and pray with all of my being that he never shows up ever again? Ah yeah fucking right. I refuse to accept that. If you don’t WANT your child, well then, fuck you. Don’t let the door hit you in the ass on your way out homie. And a meth addict who is notorious for his over the top “I’m gonna getcha” shit?!?! Nope. Not gonna happen.
When mr meth called me that night and begged me to terminate his rights….I was like a kid on Christmas morning! I was living in the city not the same place I got the divorce so first I tried to locate a local lawyer.

First lawyer was a prick and told me that I should be ashamed of myself for trying to get rid of him instead of helping him. I in return was an equal prick and told him that I was already plenty ashamed of myself but not for this…I went on to tell this attorney, who I didn’t know, nor did I need to spill my guts too, that I didn’t owe that son of a bitch anything and if I really wanted to get rid of him I’d hire a fucking hitman and not an attorney! All I was trying to do was protect my daughter from a meth addicted gang banger with a violent fuckin history! Is that really so much to ask?! I told the attorney that HE should be ashamed of himself for judging people so quickly, without knowing the whole story.  “A quick tognue will slit your own throat if you’re not careful” I told him before hanging up to sob. 

I went to plan B……the wonderful attorney who helped me throught the divorce.  Problem was….she was in a different county and we werent sure which county I would have to proceed in.  Since my ex husband had a long history of trouble with the law in the county where I was divorced we wanted to proceed there….I had already been before this judge for the divorce and my ex was before the same judge to be sentanced for drugs….the judge knew the story so I thought maybe that would help my case.  Nope, I thought wrong.  My case wasnt going to be easy but I had already come this far so there was no way in hell I was stopping until his name was OFF her birth certificate.  I didnt know what kinda trouble he was in and I didnt want to….I just wanted him GONE. 

My lawyer and I worked for three months to prepare the case.  How hard could it be to build a case against a gangbanger really?!

First, mr meth had “abandoned”  the PIT in the courts eyes.  He had been gone out of the PIT’s life since she was 15 months old and at this time she was nearing her 3rd birthday.  Mr Meth had made no contact (except for threats on my life) with the PIT. He left town that day after getting the divorce papers and never saw her again. No letters, cards, calls…..nada.

Second, Mr Meth was behind in child support payments to the tune of $20,000 and had never made a payment ever, nor was there any hope of him getting a job given his serious lack of motivation and current drug abuse.  I was busting my ass to survive on my own, without child support and without any sort of public assistance, without anything. Shit I even paid for the kids overpriced health insurance on my own and lived on microwave popcorn! 

Third, Mr meth requested this termination because of his gang involvement.  He had a long history of trouble with the law so proving he was a loser wasnt to hard.  I had the court papers of his last violent arrest, the restraining order from my divorce (which was valid for 8 years…thank you) and his own admission of gang and drug involvment. 

It was clear Mr Meth was not father material. This should have been easy.  Instead, I had to meet with the social service people so they could see how I interacted with the PIT and to see that she was well taken care of. Ummm im sorry but what the fuck?! Make him prove something!! I birthed the child and I have been caring for her MYSELF since day one! My lawyer advised me to shut my mouth and jump through the hoops the courts were going to put me through. I KILLS me to shut my mouth by the way. But I did. I jumped through every stupid hoop and met with every social workers they sent to me and I smiled through every interview, the whole time I really just wanted to tell them that this “system” was a bogus fucking mess. 

Finally, my day came and I was heading to court to present my case.  I threw up in the lawyers office before we left. I was just a lil bit nervous apparently!  My mom and my dad both came to the court with me….I was so glad that they did.  As I cried my eyes out on the stand as I relived the nightmare that Mr Meth had made my life and begged the judge to sign the order….I felt stronger with my parents there. (Thank you both)  As I sat on the stand all teary eyed, the judge looked at me and said “How do you know he isnt just trying to get out of child support?” 

“I dont care. I dont care about the child support…Ive never recieved any so how could I miss it?! I dont recieve any assistance from tax payers at all nor do I intend to. I dont see what the court cares about the stupid child support order!” I yelled. I was so frustrated…..so angry…..WHY was this not an open and shut case?!?! ”Im not doing this out of spite or to get back at him or anything like that your honor. I AM SCARED of this man. I am terrified that he is going to take my child from me again….like he did that day when I almost ripped his face right off. Together we are monsters who will fight to the death. I just want this nightmare to stop. I want to be mommy. I have a gorgeous little girl who NEEDS and deserves her mother….a mother who is not living in fear.  Please your honor,” i said as I bawled…..”Please help me

The judge handed me a tissue, leaned back in his chair…..he told me that he hoped I had learned a lesson about running with the “wrong crowd” and that in the future I should pick my baby daddys a bit better.

Ok…that kick in the teeth is duely noted sir.  Thank you for pointing out the obvious.  

Finally he signed the order terminating Mr Meths parental rights, changed the PITs name and my last name….ordered a new birth certificate and sent me on my way. 

I was exhausted but giddy! Had I really just accomplished that?! Holy SHIT! WoooHOOOO!! That was the best feeling in the world……I fought my ass off for my girl and I WON. The nightmare that I had been living finally came to an end in 2005. The PIT and I were free of Mr Meth!!

*Currently maintain NO contact with Mr Meth what so ever. I attempted to make nice with his family when the PIT was wondering why she looked like she should speak spanish but it didnt last long. We’re good with why she looks like she would speak spanish. His family and I didnt see eye to eye on alot of things and I am not the kinda girl to bend for someone if I just dont want
to. Mr Meth is still cracked out in Cali last I knew….has a new baby now…super…glad your winky still works and that youre still irresponsible enough to reproduce….(I revoked my own rights to reproduce after the book of meth and had my tubes tied. I made a mess the first time around..no need to repeat!) Anywhooo—-the PIT and I are together, we’re happy, healthy and ready to take on the world!!