Over the last year I’ve mentioned Morgan more than once and for good reason. She’s a-fuckin-mazing. Not only that, she has a gift for sparking the flame of passion.
No, seriously-she’s THAT good. She has single handedly inspired me to ignite MY passion…..in order to do that, I need to focus on me, my passions, my likes, my dreams. I realized quickly when I was unable to write a personal manifesto that didn’t suck ass, that I had work to do and it was LONG over due.
Recently the flu honestly tried to kill me. I had a hell of a time defending myself. Why? My nemesis, depression and anxiety had been been allowed to manifest inside me and slowly weaken me with doubt, worry and fears. I had to face it…I wasn’t well…mind, body or soul.
I faced it and as I did I could hear Morgan’s words replaying in my mind, calming my nerves..challenging me to use the wings I’ve had all along…to trust myself…and just be~
I spent hours over at Bluegrass Romance.…created by none other that Morgan of course. Reading and re-reading the weekly mini-missions, how the Bluegrass Romance came to be and why it’s so damn intriguing…I read posts from her previous blog, ModernSingleMomma, where I first met Morgan….words filled with honest and raw passion and love of life…words that were as much of a force as they were when I first read them over a year ago.
I’ve spent the last year blogging mostly about my past… After a lot of thought, meditation and reflection I’ve decided to take a lesson from Morgan…challenge myself to chase my passion and seek out adventure. Small steps, goals, deadlines…personal challenges…in small not so scary doses.
It started like this…
This weeks small steps:
*Drink at least one glass of milk a day (besides being prego-I havent drank milk since I moved out of my mothers house. That shits nasty but allegedly good for me so whatever, I’ll drink it)
Done. Shit I finished off the entire jug of milk this week. That is something I can honestly say, I’ve never done—until now~
*Clean out my disgusting car (Its gross)
The Civic is clean….there is a floor and floor mats after all!
*Tell the PIT Im proud of her at least 14 times a day (14 just seems like a nice number)
Check….this one was a breeze…kids friggin amazing
*Get hair did
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*Try this ‘yoga’ thing
Not yet…this one carries over into week two
*Eat. All three meals everyday.
Check! I actually ate very well this week and intend to keep it up….I am feeling MUCH better and I’m fully aware that it’s up to me to continue improving my less than healthy habits. Im gonna kick each and every one of those lil bad habit bitches right in the throat
*Update my dossier ….deadline: Friday
DONE:)
*STAY positive at work….mostly by distracting myself with twitter (survival skills…get off my back)
I’d say I was successful in this one 4 out of 5 days….HUGE for me…it’s no secret I’m less than amused with my current place of employment
*Try to stay on track when blogging (heh)
So far so good…..
*Remind the PIT I love her at any given moment for no reason other than its the truth
I didn’t miss a single opportunity to tell the PIT how much I love her or how proud I am to be her mama
*Protect self from @thebastardcat who is clearly the devil in fur
I only suffered one bite and so did he….and then he went on to knock a bunch of knick knacks off the shelves and damn near killed my mouse AND my plant, Gay tom selleck….this mission carries on as well!

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It’s Sunday….end of week one. I must say, I feel pretty fucking good!
In addition to the small steps I listed earlier in the week, I made a point to seek out an adventure/momstarmission.
Today was a complete and total fucking success.
After a #SMR at Fat Nat’s the PIT and I went out in search of a park with “not baby’ toys. It was a hot, sticky gloomy day with a few brief moments of sunshine…it didn’t matter….the PIT was beaming brighter than the sun could even want to. Our random road trip (yes, I got lost. again.) lead us to Wayzata and a rather stunning Art Fair.
We strolled along Main Street…along the lake shore…stopping at the booths to check out the art.
We even stopped so the PIT could participate in the fun.
She painted “Ralph”

while I sat on a bench near by,

taking in the sights and sounds of a busy city street against the tranquil sounds of the lake….



nature, city, the PIT’s laughter….

THIS is what I’m after-moments like this.
I’m going to continue with these weekly adventures and ‘small step’ lists and strive to challenge myself continuously.
Teaching myself and the PIT just how important passion is…
this week’s passion/lesson was……a mothers love….