Not Your Average Single Momma

Day 4 means another challenge from the loveys over at GirlyGazette.com

*have you been there?! Why the hell not? Go! Now! Enjoy!*

Challenege 4 is all about self recognition. Not my best subject but theres only one way to improve on that….here we go!

*I have the ability to wipe up old people poo while vomiting thanks to morning sickness…all without getting poo, vomit or old people on the floor.

*I can care for my sick child on less than 2 hours of sleep. And still make it to work.

*I have super strength that allows me to carry 5 bags of groceries, a diaper bag, my big ass purse, and a baby up 3 flights of stairs.in the snow.

*This also allows me to move and rearrange things myself. Granted there’s alot of cussing and about a pack of cigs smoked in the process but I always get it done.

*I have eyes in the back of my head.

Ask the PIT.

 She’s all “nuh uh!” and I’m like “don’t lie to your mother!” and she’s like “how did you know?!?” and then bursts into tears.

 She hates when mums disappointed….thus…overall, she’s a damn good kid.

Honest (mostly), respectful, helpful and kind.

*Somewhere in me is a supermum power that teaches her how to be herself and be a good, true person.

*I’m a writer, photographer, dreamer (even when I don’t admit it), strong, independant, hard working woman.

*I work my ass of wherever I’m working, even when I don’t like the place or how they treat me like shat. I have a job to do and gswddamn it I’m going to do it well. I thank those mean ass nurses at the home…Stacy, Ann, Mary…thank you hardass ladies for teaching me the value of hard work.

*I have mananged to support the PIT and myself entirely independantly…without child support, welfare, finacial aid, medical assistance, no savings, no net what so ever but somehow…..I manage and even on days that totally suck ass and Im beyond broke….it still feels pretty damn good to say “Yes I fucking can do this” 

However, it should be noted that the only reason I am able to get by sometimes is because of the kindness of others.  I am forever in debt to my mother, my grandmother loaned me the money I needed to get divorced, old boss man once threw $100 bill at me and told me I better have a winter coat by Monday, a man my mother works with had a ton of Elk burger one year and he sent me home with about 10 pounds of meat…one day when I was really down and out, had no money and no food besides this Elk burger and a can of sloppy jo mix.  I unwrapped the burger and tucked inside the packaging was a $50 bill.  Not knowing what the hell to think of this…I said “fuck it! Im going to the grocery store! Getcher shoes on kid” and we went to the grocery store (after I ripped open every single package of meat to check-just in case they all had $50s!)  Then after I spent the money I felt all guilty and called my mom to tell her friend “dropped” a $50 in the meat and that I couldnt give it back because I had already spent it! She informed me that he didnt “drop” anything in the meat….he intended to give me that money because he knew that I could really use it.  I cried at the idea of his kindness and I was and still am so grateful for that kindness…the kind that catches you off gaurd, grabs your attention and says “HEY! YOU! BE GRATEFUL”  Im truely am grateful to everyone who has helped me to stay afloat in what seems to be a sinking situation.   I know that with my strength and your “boosts” along the way….I will never drown.

*I’m a survivor…of my own mistakes…
I fall down, crumble and crack often but I always get back up and I always give it my all once again.

I may fail alot but that means I try Alot.

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“When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you, till it seems as though you could not hang on a minute longer, never give up then, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn.”

~Harriet Beecher Stowe